I laughed and said, Life is easy. What I meant was, Life is easy with you here, and when you leave, it will be hard again.
I had kind of a midlife crisis at twenty which probably doesn’t augur well for my longevity
David Foster Wallace
And when, at last, you find someone to whom you feel you can pour out your soul, you stop in shock at the words you utter— they are so rusty, so ugly, so meaningless and feeble from being kept in the small cramped dark inside you so long.